I have a confession to make…
The last few weeks have been a little crazy. From 3 TV spots (details coming soon!), to last ditch MS Walk fundraising efforts to publicly launching my new business, I have to admit… I’m tired.
The last few weeks have been nothing short of overwhelming – in the best way possible. But, let’s be honest, those events alone are enough to put any person a bit over the edge but add a 1 year old and MS to the mix, and you’ve got a bit of a situation… I admit, I may have overdone it.
Recently, I’ve had a lot of people ask me how I am able to juggle all of the above with ease, but the truth is, nothing is as easy or fluid as it seems. Behind the scenes, there’s a lot of coordinating, prioritizing, and yes, even craziness that happens. Frankly, I’m usually in bed by 7pm simply because I take any and every chance I get to relax when the baby is asleep for the night (as many parents know, it’s a sacred time!). I just need alone time to decompress even if that means working from my bedside with reality TV in the background.
I’ve also realized that when I get overwhelmed or take on too much, something else happens… For the past two weeks, I’ve been experiencing odd feelings in my head. I call them “zingers”, random, spontaneous buzzings, and I often get cloudy, or as some MSer call it, “brain fog” (BTW – do any of you readers get this!? If so, I’d love to hear about your experiences).
OK, so, bare with me while I try to elaborate because it’s not easy for me to explain but my head feels full and it’s hard for me to concentrate. Sometimes I also feel pressure on both sides of my head and it feels like someone is pushing my head together. I know, I know… it’s strange. I’ve learned over time that it’s often a sign that I’m experiencing too much stress or I need to slow down, but we all know just how much I hate to do that. It’s a struggle for me.
So today, after my 3rd and final TV interview, I sat down and truly acknowledged to myself that I didn’t feel well. Something has been “off” for the past couple weeks and I’ve just tried to shake it off but I can’t anymore. I spoke to my neurologist about my experiences and he agreed that it was best to move up my scheduled MRI to make sure it’s nothing more serious. I’m hopeful it’s not but always best to be proactive, right? Always my motto anyway… So, I’m heading into to get an MRI this morning. Wish me luck!